Well, FUCK

January 18, 2014 12:30 pm 12:37 am
What’s so wrong about having nothing figured out? They say a fool is someone who thinks he knows everything and a wise man, one who KNOWS he never will. This is my main problem with schooling’s PREPARATIVE mentality because education IS life not the preparation for when you will one day get to live to the extent of your dreams. They also say that happiness is found within the pursuit of itself. The moment you’ve been preparing your entire life for (and the ONLY moment that exists) is this one RIGHT NOW. I hope my rubix cube is never solved and I take comfort in knowing I will never know the outcome of the goals I strive to achieve/ never know where I’ll end up. That would make NOW so utterly pointless and NOW is all you have. So indulge in yourself , rejoice :)

What’s so wrong about having nothing figured out? They say a fool is someone who thinks he knows everything and a wise man, one who KNOWS he never will. This is my main problem with schooling’s PREPARATIVE mentality because education IS life not the preparation for when you will one day get to live to the extent of your dreams. They also say that happiness is found within the pursuit of itself. The moment you’ve been preparing your entire life for (and the ONLY moment that exists) is this one RIGHT NOW. I hope my rubix cube is never solved and I take comfort in knowing I will never know the outcome of the goals I strive to achieve/ never know where I’ll end up. That would make NOW so utterly pointless and NOW is all you have. So indulge in yourself , rejoice :)

12:33 am

Friday 1/17/14

I feel as if there is so much left to my day. My parents will soon ascend the stairs to their rest in the room adjacent to mine. MY ROOM, my living space. i feel so unwelcome after hours, being a night owl. I work the night shift an hour away, how can I help it when I don’t leave the mountain until 10 o’clock. Oh yeah, I work at a ski resort. shelter for the most unwilling of coworkers. But then again this has been my only legal job ever so I have no experience to compare. I worked the carpet today watching countless irresponsible beginners fall halfway up and agitatively when they are to be standing STILL on the conveyor belt. How does that even happen? I kept thinking this one instructor with a multicolored hood protruding from her identifying uniform kept catching me peering in her direction. She was cute„ It was mostly her persistent smile. And I thought about how cute girls are so desensitized to asshole men. Actually almost beyond desensitized, now just unardently annoyed. I formulated a rebuttal to a wry response to my interest and friendliness. It went something like this: I don’t like the term “hitting on you,” it sounds so violent. I’m not one of those self righteous frat boys who are looking for a good nut. You intrigue me as a human, which should say a lot (enjoy this friendliness). I would be this playful with a man of my interest if I knew most men weren’t ingrained with homophobic entitlements.” and its true, I would kiss a boy if i felt truly comfortable within his presence. I’m not necessarily as OPEN to the possibility as I’m just not AFRAID of it. But speaking of guys, I DID meet a cool-ass one today. Derek, I worked with him. At first a seemingly laidback guy, when my trip to rainbow somehow leaked out into the oil of our conversation it was confirmed. Total deadhead and traveler. We talked of music and the abomination of genre names, the difference between Phish and the Grateful Dead. I also quoted the book Cunt, that I happened to be reading in front of him earlier, to bring up the fallacy of our social system… one cool-ass nigga if I may repeat myself. ONE COOL-ASS NIGGA.

Now let’s see if I can feel the sandman’s weights enough to doze off before 6;30 in the AM like I recovered from a few hours before my shift this day. I want tomorrow to be productive.

January 17, 2014 6:57 am
fuck gender roles, promote individuality

fuck gender roles, promote individuality

(Source: omitmyselfff, via true-grit-with-lightskin)

6:43 am

youphoric:

humans are so cute, when we say goodbye we put our arms around each other and to show we love someone we bring them flowers. we say hello by holding each other’s hand, and sometimes tiny little dewdrops form in our eyes. for pleasure we listen to arrangements of sounds, press our lips together, smoke dried leaves, get drunk off of old fruit. we’re all just little animals, falling in love and having breakfast beneath billions of stars :~)

January 11, 2014 7:58 pm
humansofnewyork:

"Sometimes it’s so hard to not fall in love with your friends."

humansofnewyork:

"Sometimes it’s so hard to not fall in love with your friends."

October 18, 2013 9:27 am

crispycrunchlunchpunch:

Makiko Kudo is swiftly replacing some people as my favorite painter. 

truly inspiring 

(via popojetoy)

9:24 am 9:23 am September 28, 2013 7:09 pm
humansofnewyork:

"When I was 20, I made a plan to get a good job and be secure. Now I’m 35, and I need a plan to be happy."

humansofnewyork:

"When I was 20, I made a plan to get a good job and be secure. Now I’m 35, and I need a plan to be happy."

7:04 pm
"I want to be alone and I want people to notice me - both at the same time"

Thom Yorke  (via dirtbag666)

(Source: black-wolves, via entheogenicmushroomomens)

August 30, 2013 11:13 am
blasphemousnyan:

Go-Zen. God damn this band is awesome.

I FUCKING LOVE JAPAN

blasphemousnyan:

Go-Zen. God damn this band is awesome.

I FUCKING LOVE JAPAN

August 16, 2013 10:38 pm August 12, 2013 11:58 am

With this never ending sadness, why do I get out of bed??

11:57 am
"Admit it. You aren’t like them. You’re not even close. You may occasionally dress yourself up as one of them, watch the same mindless television shows as they do, maybe even eat the same fast food sometimes. But it seems that the more you try to fit in, the more you feel like an outsider, watching the “normal people” as they go about their automatic existences. For every time you say club passwords like “Have a nice day” and “Weather’s awful today, eh?”, you yearn inside to say forbidden things like “Tell me something that makes you cry” or “What do you think deja vu is for?”. Face it, you even want to talk to that girl in the elevator. But what if that girl in the elevator (and the balding man who walks past your cubicle at work) are thinking the same thing? Who knows what you might learn from taking a chance on conversation with a stranger? Everyone carries a piece of the puzzle. Nobody comes into your life by mere coincidence. Trust your instincts. Do the unexpected. Find the others…"

- Timothy Leary

….find the others <3

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